September 27, 2012

Investing In Myself and My Family


When a daughter chooses to invest in herself, face the wounded childhood and history, and complete the recovery process (to come in part 3), things begin to change. Learning to stop the repetition compulsion, to separate from your mother, build your own sense of self, and free yourself from the damaging internalized messages, you set out on a whole new healthy, optimistic journey. ~Karyl McBride, Ph.D.

Here's how I read it...

When I choose to invest in myself, face the wounded childhood and history, and complete the recovery process (to come in part 3), things begin to change. Learning to stop the repetition compulsion, to separate from my mother and all of my impossible people, build my own sense of self, and free myself from the damaging internalized messages, I set out on a whole new healthy, optimistic journey. 

GO ME!!! 


I have worked through the deep-rooted narcissistic abuse from my childhood, so I am now living a happier life with myself, my daughters, my husband and family. I have given up the old hope of getting my mother's love and the love of impossible people. In turn, the love in my heart is overflowing and more powerful than I ever imagined possible.

GO ME!!!

That picture at the top of the page is me when I was 5 years old in Kindergarten. The picture of my beautiful, wonderful, awesome family from left to right was taken last Christmas when we were celebrating Fiona's 8th birthday: Fiona, Don, Kinsley, Lauren and Me.

2 comments:

  1. Good for you!!! Dealing with a painful past, being honest enough to face it and go through the healing process is SO hard. You have a lot to be proud of and you know God will carry you on those days that are still tough. =)

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  2. I am a dysfunctional family survivor who refuses to pass any of this on to my sweet kids! Thank you Jessie! Thank you for encouraging me...means a lot.

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