April 18, 2012

What can I say? More Randomness

Had my 3rd mammogram last week. They have a new imaging machine at the hospital. I don't know what it is about this new machine but this go around HURT. The technician would ask me if I was okay and I would grit my teeth and mumble, "YES" .. hurry up lady. It hurts! I don't know what it was about this go-around but it HURT. The machine squeezes the crap out of your boobs. It's not fun. BUT, it is worth the pain in order to make sure everything is okay and there is no breast cancer. I'm glad for that.

My last load of laundry is in the dryer as I write! Now I move on to washing all our sheets, pillow cases, and comforters. Laundry Fairy Extraordinaire is what I Am! Go Me!

I could go for some chips and salsa right about now. I think I will. YU-UM! That's another reason to be glad lent is over. I can indulge again if I want to but not to worry. I'll be partaking in some treadmill time later on today before I have to get ready to pick the girls up from school.

So...what do you think of my randomness? Do you like it? Should I keep doing this? Would you like to read more of what's going on in my life? I think you would be happy to know that I don't always get down and dirty about what's happening. Those that know me, get it. Those that don't know me, don't really get it. To many I'm just another alias floating around in the magnetosphere probably boring the crap out of you. You don't even know why you bothered to read this far down by post today..right? ;)

There are so many things I want to write about. I think because of those things I have created a wall for myself. It makes me not want to write as much. Why bother if can't tell you what's going on? So many bloggers paint this fairy-like princess perfect life. How authentic is that? Just because you write it and can't take it back on the internet doesn't mean it's wrong. Life is a journey. We do things all the time in our lives that we can't take back. So even if you found this page 30 years from now, so what? You don't think I'm still evolving? You don't think I'm still learning on this journey? Just because it's not on my blog doesn't mean it's not there which is making me question why I am holding back. It's a legit question, don't you think?

So what do you think? To blog or not to blog? That's the question! Does it really matter who I am or that you know me OR that my children may one day pop back on here and read all of this? This blog doesn't define my life nor do the circumstances that I sometimes find myself in. How wonderful it might be for a total stranger somewhere out there to come to a point of realizing that other people are going through the same things they are..Or to just know that they are not the only ones dealing with world class butt-heads. What a relief that would be..don't you think?

I wish Sushi would stop barking. She thinks this street belongs to her! I supposed it's time for the shock box. Don't hate! You would use a shock box too if you knew how well behaved she is when it's on. I can take her up to the school to get the girls and she doesn't snap at all when someone tries to pet her. She doesn't try to chase every yellow school bus going by either. I'll have to remember to put the shock box on her the next time we visit the vet. I think the vet will be pleasantly surprised that they can go about their business without having to muzzle her.

If my husband, children, family, friends, and loved ones were to come back and read this blog 30 years from now that would put me at roughly 72 years of age if I am lucky enough to still be alive. I think they would know without question how much I love them and would realize that sometimes life is not perfect. Sometimes life is hard. Sometimes those things are meant to be shared. If you bottle it all up what good does that do? Life is messy. Life is beautiful but it is messy. Even people who don't blog have blogs. They have them in their daily activities, telephone conversations, music, songs, trips, notes, movies, tweets, books...in pretty much everything that they do. Agree? Or do you see it different? If so, explain yourself to me. Spell it out for me. What do you think? To blog it or keep it to myself THAT is the question I'm asking you today.

Dang! My dog is loud and extremely territorial for a 10lb peanut that will never get any bigger. She sits at the window and guards the street. You will never succeed at getting by my house without Sushi letting me know you were here..so watch yourself!

We have church tonight. I'm excited about it because I don't have to cook! Ha ha! It's also make-up night but my kids finished their books since long before spring break. We just wanted to be done with it so we wouldn't have to worry about it when it came time for SPRING fever. We're not really interested in the review stuff because well...we don't need anything to tell us that we went through the review process. I wasn't really familiar with it anyway until now. We review at home and that's good enough for me. I'm gonna miss the kids this summer. I had a really good group of kiddos this year. I'm debating on whether or not to continue in Sparks or move on to TNT. I've been working with Kinsley for three years now. I'm thinking it's time for me to spend some time with Fiona and try something new?

See...? The washer and the dryer are finished with this cycle. It's time for me to end this post and hop on the treadmill. I am craving some treadmill time..seriously. I miss it. I need those endorphins flowing through me. It puts me in a better place because sometimes life is just dog-gone messy! Don't forget to let me know what you think, okay?

2 comments:

  1. I enjoy reading about your life, but I also know that if you don't blog it then eventually, when you are ready, you will email and let me know what's up. That being said, you know me and how I have started and stopped so many of my blogs. I have so much I want to say that over the past year I've just realized I don't want the whole world reading. For those thoughts I went and bought myself a journal. Yep, it's still blogging, but it's only for me. Sometimes I want to blog because it is just easier to type it out or I wonder what people will think, but in the end I know I'd end up deleting it so for now the journal it is.

    Whatever you choose, I'm always gonna have you in my reader ;-)

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  2. Thank you so much for all of your support and encouragement. It means a lot to me.

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